It’s been seven years since you’ve been gone
The memory of you is frozen in time
You are still 62 in my heart
And 62 in my mind.
We’re still living in our condo in Florida
Rocky’s paws haven’t grayed
I still keep you at a distance
But you love me just the same.
You take your morning walks to see your friends
And spend the day sitting under that tree
I’m still too busy to sit with you
You had too much patience for me.
The nerving thing about death
Is that you never know the day
But you had so many close calls
I tried to share what I had to say.
I couldn’t imagine what I’d do without you
My entire life changed the day you left
I packed up all my stuff and sold our home
I went searching for myself out west.
When people asked me why I moved
I told them the mountains called me
But you knew once I had the chance
I’d leave behind everything that stalled me.
I know you knew the pain I carried
And how much healing I had to go through
I just pray, at the end of the day
That you knew that I didn’t blame you.
Were you there to see the cracks in me
Seal up from inside?
The day I gave my life to Him
And let Jesus be my guide.
Were you there on my wedding day
When I married a man, I wish you’d met?
Your son walked me down the aisle
I hope you got to see my dress.
Were you there when I gave birth
To a little girl of my own?
I can’t imagine how hard it was for you
Trying to raise two kids alone.
I wonder if you saw me today,
Would you recognize your daughter
I finally made it out East
But not quite where you met my father.
As the years go by it gets harder for me
To recall my memories of you
Trying to imagine you as a grandmother
Is nearly impossible for me to do.
But you don’t live on in just my thoughts
You’re alive through pieces of me
My daughter will know your strength and love
Because it’s how you raised your daughter to be.
